Woke up and went to eat lunch at lemonade with Michelle. It was a really healthy meal. After we ate Michelle had to go to class so then I walked back to the apartment by myself. The weather was SO nice. Really didn’t want to leave Cali. Once I got back to the apartment I got ready and Michelle came and picked me up. Once she picked me up we went to Santa Moncia beach.
We first shopped around 3rd street promenade before going to the beach. After the beach we went to a cafe apparently known for having a lot of celebrities there called Urth caffe. After the caffe we drove around UCLA and then went to Michelle & Joy’s small group at their pastor’s house. UCLA has SUCH a nice campus. Kind of makes me wish that I went there instead of UIUC. The campus was so beautiful and the dorms were so nice. Also, in the small group I went to everybody was so friendly and nice. It was definitely a different feeling than what I was used to. At the small group there wasn’t any bible study this week. We just ate dinner together and watched a couple of videos. After that about half of the group went to go play dodgeball and eat Mcdonald’s afterwards.
Today was a pretty chill day. At around 2pm, Joy showed me around the USC campus. It was pretty nice but it was a lot smaller than I thought it would be.After the tour I came back to the apartment and Joy and I waited until Michelle came back from class. Once Michelle came back the three of us went to a cafe in ktown. I was pretty bored at the cafe and Rachel Baeg invited me over to her house so I went.
Woke up this morning and went to a doughnut place with michelle downtown. It took us a while to get there because we got lost for a while. The doughnuts they had were really uniqueI, for example, I ate a smores doughnut. They also had pistachio, flower, etc.
Got back to the apartment and slept a little bit and then Simon, Jay, Matt, and Cindy (friends from college) picked me up at around 2 and we went to eat lunch at some ramen place downtown. Apparently their ramen was on some food channel and is known for it’s spiciness. Since i’m HORRIBLE at eating spicy food I got spicy level 2. heh(:
After we ate lunch we got dessert at a place called ice kiss. It’s waffles and patbingsoo were really good. While we were eating dessert we played monopoly and then went to this billboard place and played pool for about an hour and a half. It was actually really fun except for the part where I smelled like cigs.
At around 7:30 joy and michelle picked me up and we went to eat at a sushi place with a few of her friends and got dessert at a really nice place. The dessert was kind of expensive but it was goooood.
Woke up this morning around 9:30AM and just laid in bed until Joy woke up. Ate breakfast that Joy made and slowly started to get ready for the day while waiting for Michelle. Michelle came around 1pm and we went to eat lunch at a burger place called unamni by little tokoyo. It was REALLY good. Seriously, one of the best burgers I’ve ever eaten.
We also chilled at a cafe nearby called “The Pie Hole”. Michelle had to go to class at 4pm so she dropped me off at the apartment and then Joy picked me up at around 4:30 and we went to the LACMA (the tall towers) and the grove (outdoor mall).
We then met up with Michelle at the kanghodong 고기 place and it was SO good. The food today was just on point. I never knew 고기 could taste so good. They had their own special sauce for the meat and it was literally one of the best tasting things I’ve ever eaten. Seriously, if you’re EVER in LA you MUST go. Meat never tasted the same to me after that day…
After dinner we went to Zion market and snow LA. Since Michelle and Joy had a lot of work to do we went to a 24/7 open cafe called “Tom n Toms” around 11pm so that they can do their work. Unfortunately, I’ve been gaining weight… I can see myself living at Cali in the future but driving and finding parking is just horrible. Don’t know if I’ll be able to do it.
I know this is super late but I decided it would be a good idea to start journaling my “adventures”. Going to Cali for spring break was really my first time traveling anywhere for fun on my own. Two of my friends from church, Joy Han and Michelle Tak, go to USC so I stayed with them during this whole trip. I’m not a very good writer so bear with me a little(:
The first day I woke up at 6AM to go to the airport. I landed at LAX around 11:20AM and Joy picked me up. She then took me to her apartment and cooked me bulgogi and 밥. It tasted SO good because it’s been a long time since I got to eat actual korean food. I wish I took a picture of her apartment because it was a lot bigger than what i expected it to be. The FIRST thing I see when I enter their apartment is a sheet of paper Michelle and Joy wrote on with their plans for me this whole week. I felt so grateful towards them when I saw that.
After I ate I went to one of Joy’s architecture classes for about 2 hours and then Michelle picked me up. We bought some smoothies and Michelle gave me a quick small tour of USC. The campus is really nice and different than what I thought it’d be like. I expected old buildings but a lot of them looked new and kind of modern. Michelle then took me to Tokoyo one. It’s a very small tokoyo town, or more like block, in downtown L.A. We ate oolong there, which was really good, and got kochi ice-cream and maccoroons for dessert. After we ate and looked around a little bit we went someplace in korea town for more desserts.
We then went to a place called beard papa’s, which sell cream puffs, and shopped at a store where everything was $1.50.
After that we came back to the apartment and I took like a 15-20 minute nap and waited for Joy to come back. Once Joy got back Michelle, Joy, their roommate, and I went to a cute cafe called hayni in k-town and met up with Sharon Pak. We stayed there till about 11pm.
Been thinking a lot lately. Feels weird saying it out of my own mouth but I think i’ve matured a lot over the past couple of years. I can definitely say that I am almost a completely different person than I was a year ago, a freshman in college. My priorities, views, and attitude have almost completely changed. Not sure if it’s a good thing or bad thing.
Nineteen things I’ve learned before I turned nineteen.
1. Always carry $5 and a lighter with you (even if you don’t smoke).
2. Ask every person you meet how their day is going. Genuinely ask with the soul intention of learning how their day is. Ask the coffee shop employee. Ask the person next to you in line at Walmart. Ask your distant friend. Ask everyone.
3. Take many photos of yourself. Take photos of yourself when you’re happy. Take photos of yourself when you’re sad. Take photos of yourself because there are millions of trees in the world, and we all look at the same sky, but there is only one of you.
4. Stay in contact with your parents. Try not to hate them. They are the reason you have the ability to feel anything at all. Try not to hate your parents.
5. Opening your skin will not set your demons free. Open your heart. Open your mind. Open your hands.
6. Nobody knows anybody completely. That’s okay.
7. Be gentle, but be aggressive. Take a stand. Nobody hears your voice if you stay silent.
8. Respect everybody. We are all humans trying to survive. We all deserve respect.
9. Wearing black will ALWAYS make you feel better about yourself.
10. Always give tips, whether it be a couple extra dollars or a piece of mind. You never know how much you could be helping someone.
11. Change is the only thing consistent in life. Do not allow that bother you. Embrace chance and move with life, whichever direction it chooses to take you.
12. Smile often. Smile at strangers. Smile at your friends. Smile when nobody is looking and you’re alone in your bedroom. Smile when somebody is rambling to you.
13. Body image means nothing. Your body is merely just a seatbelt in the car. Your body is here to protect you. You choose the direction you go, and your body will not hold you back. Only you can hold yourself back.
14. Don’t hold grudges. Don’t allow yourself to hate anybody. Forgive them. Learn to love them for the person you never got to see them to be. Believe that a beautiful human exists in that person. Wish them well.
15. Drink orange juice. Lot’s of it.
16. Don’t allow the opinions of others to choose your destiny. We are all simply trying to live our own life.
17. Sing all the time. Sing off key. Sing in a silly voice. Sing like you’re on stage. Sing no matter who is around. Singing is breathing for the soul. Sing.
18. Take time to think. Write your feelings down. Write letters to the people you love. Texting is overrated and not as heartfelt as a nice handwritten letter.
19. Live for yourself. Breathe for yourself. Do everything in your life for nobody but you. This is your life. This is it.
1. When your friends ask you to hangout, and you don’t feel like it, don’t go. Don’t ever do things halfway or do something that makes you uncomfortable. With everything, give all of yourself, even the pieces you never knew existed.
2. It is okay to not know. Everyone always despises the phrase, “I don’t know” but no one tells you that it is okay to not know. The becoming is more important than the being, anyways.
3. If someone ever makes you feel less, in any way, you have every right to walk away. You have every right to cut out toxic people in your life. To close the door on people who make you feel bad about who you are or what you stand for. Friends don’t tear down, they build up.
4. Loss is always going to happen. Just like paint will always chip and rain will always fall, loss will always be part of life. No matter how much I don’t like it, or avoid it, it is going to walk my way at several times in my life. Learn to embrace it and learn to get closure.
5. Give yourself a chance. Stop saying, “I don’t think I can” or “But what if I am not able to?” and give yourself a chance. This may be cliche, but try to believe in yourself. When you get older, your knees won’t work the same and you won’t have the best memory, and you are going to wish you’d given yourself a chance years sooner.
6. Fall in love. Don’t be guarded before you fall in love. You could fall in love three times and still not find the right one, but none of it is going to make “the one” matter less. Don’t fall into that idea that your first love has to be your best love. Fall in love as many times as it naturally happens.
7. Firsts are going to be messy. First loves, first kisses, first dates, first failed tests, first college class, first time you drive a car, first time you ride a plane - first times were made to be imperfect. Just because it’s messy and all over the place, doesn’t mean it can’t be good or worthwhile.
8. You want another scoop of ice-cream? Go get it. Get three more scoops of ice-cream if that is what you want. “Fat” is not the opposite of beautiful and it is not the opposite of happy. Don’t let anyone tell you that your body type isn’t beautiful. Beauty is a social construct, create your own, become your own.
9. Let yourself be alone. Loneliness is not a bad thing. It is healthy and normal. Everyone needs to spend a good portion of their life alone. We learn who we are when we are alone; life is less crowded and more clear when we are alone.
10. If you aren’t happy where you are, change it. Quit your job, move, become a vegetarian, get a new hobby, pick up an old hobby, whatever you do - make sure it benefits you. Life is too short to not be alive, to not be passionate, and overflowing.
The hardest period in life is one’s twenties. It’s a shame because you’re your most gorgeous, and you’re physically in peak condition. But it’s actually when you’re most insecure and full of self-doubt. When you don’t know what’s going to happen, it’s frightening.